Monday, March 13, 2017


Can't believe the mistakes I make. Screwed so many things so badly. I wish I had someone that I could be truly honest with my life about. Its depressing I have no one that I trust. 

I suppose its driven by my own willingness to do things I am ashamed of. I do enjoy those activities though. Another year another screwed up love life. Another move at work and a promotion as well. Not sure I deserve it but I took it anyway. 

I hate whom I have become! 

Monday, February 10, 2014

It's amazing how one's life can change. Hard to believe that a shy introverted kid can become successful in work and yet feel alone in life.

Given one of my best performance reviews. A bonus that would change most people's life. A group of employees that seem to want me around them. And yet here I sit in a McDonalds alone.

I don't feel like sharing the news with my spouse. Her concern is more about the money then anything else. We share a room and a bed. Yet have no relationship.